Age Increases, Confidence Decreases?

I went for my diving refresher course this morning, in preparation for my Cebu trip. It has been five years since my last dive, which by the way was my one and only diving trip...

I have also considered myself to be pretty confident in the water and have always being involved in water sports, swimming, canoeing, dragonboating till I graduated and sports sadly became a holiday activity. I was the water-babe. Anyway, back to this morning, I was in the swimming pool going through all the necessary drills and procedures needed to save my life in diving emergencies, I realised that I cannot smoothly execute some of the basic drills needed. All the stuff I had difficulty in doing now, were stuff which I had no problem doing five years ago...Beside the fact that I was ten times fitter five years ago, the main issue here is confidence.
Task One: Flooding my mask and clearing the water out....took me ten minutes to find the courage to let water into my mask and of course another ten minutes to let the water out, which by the time, I had already breathed in noseful of water and nearly caused myself to choke..glurp...
Task Two: Oral Inflation of my BCD (the vest thing which divers wear, somewhat like a life jacket). Almost drowned the first time I tried (cannot understand why) It is a simple matter of keeping my head above the water while I blow air into the BCD to inflate it. Couldn't do it because I just kept thinking that the tank is too heavy so almost drowned myself in the swimming pool.

As we get older, we start to get "wiser". We consider, we ponder, we think and we think too much. When we do that we get afraid. Afraid of the unknown, maybe bad things will happen if we do this or that. Maybe...I wonder where the fearlessness of my youth went. I went on a round-Ubin cycling trip 2 days after I learnt how to ride a bike, bearing in mind that Pulau Ubin twelve years ago has only 1 paved road, so the trip was all-out all-terrain cycling . At 18, a group of 5 or 6 of us led a group of twenty 17-year olds fairly new climbers up the slipperly and steep slopes of Kota Tinggi and stayed overnight on the lightning-proned summit. We also decided that 2 girls and a boy climbing Kota Tinggi and spending a night at the summit with no weapon more impressive than a sharp ended comb was a great idea (Tin must be laughing when she is reading this because she knows exactly what I am talking about, haha)

What was I thinking about then? Or maybe I should ask myself, what am I thinking of NOW? Why am I thinking so much, why am I afraid?

This tells you I am bored again...another meme

I give you money and send you into the grocery store to pick up 6 items. You can only pick one thing from the following departments... what is it?
1. Produce: Potatoes
2. Bakery: Fried Sausage Donut
3. Meat: Minced Pork
4. Frozen: Frozen Roti Prata
5. Dry goods: Instant Noodles
6. Dairy: Cheddar Cheese

Let's say we're heading out for a weekend getaway. You're only allowed to bring 3 articles of clothing with you. So, what's in your bag?
1. White Sundress
2. Slippers
3.Bikini

If I was to listen in on one of your conversations throughout the day, what 5 phrases or words would I be most likely to hear?
1. Lalalala
2. oh my goodness!
3. Wah Lau!
4. Arhhh!
5. Errrr....

So, what 3 things do you find yourself doing every single day, and if you didn't get to do, you probably wouldn't be in the best mood?
1. My NINE hours of beauty sleep
2. Drink my daily cuppa- tea
3. Kiss my hubby

Sweet, you just scored a whole afternoon to yourself. We're talking a 3 hour block with nobody around. What 5 activities might we find you doing?
1. Read a book
2. Have a wonderful soak in my bathtub
3. Lie on my bed and mindlessly channel-surf
4. Go gocery shoppnig
5. Iron my never-gonna diminish pile of clothes

We're going to the zoo. But, it looks like it could start storming, so it'll have to be a quick visit. What 3 exhibits do we have to get to?
1. Pymg Hippo
2. Zebras
3. Elephants

You just scored tickets to the taping of any show that comes on t.v. of your choice. You can pick between 4, so what are you deciding between?
1. Grey's Anatomy
2. CSI
3. Maimi Ink (need to check if they are really fake)
4. Any foodie shows provided that I get to eat the food

You're hungry for ice cream. I'll give you a triple dipper ice cream cone.
What 3 flavors can I pile on for ya?
1. Peppermint
2. Sweetcorn
3. Wasabi

Somebody stole your purse/wallet…in order to get it back, you have to name 5 things you know are inside to claim it. So, what's in there?
1. IC (I lost my IC FOUR times so I guess they might decide to revoke my citzenship if I lose it again)
2. Credit Cards/ Atm Cards
3. Driving License
4. Money usually not more than 50 bucks
5. Old ATM receipts, other evidence of my recent extravagence

You are at a job fair, and asked what areas you are interested in pursuing a career in. Let's pretend you have every talent and ability to be whatever you wanted, so what 4 careers would be fun for you?
1. Nat Geo Journalist
2. War photographer
3. Marine Biologist
4. Someone who studies plants in forests (what do you call them?)

If you could go back and talk to the old you, when you were in high school, and inform yourself of 4 things, what would you say?
1. Make more friends!
2. Don't be afraid, you are only 18 once!
3. Girl, you need to have a better fashion sense!!
4. Be nicer to people around you!!

Sad

I feel sad!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I hate it when people makes me feel inadequete, irresponsible and incapable.

I hate it when others get a 45-minute tougue lashing for my silly mistakes.

I hate it when I am accused of not putting in my best because I am leaving the company.

Damned the bird...totally hate her for making me feel like that.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

Lust Caution

Lust Caution must be the most sexually explicit mass market movie to be shown in Singapore so far. I am surprised that the uncut version is shown in Singapore (our repressed little island state, boobs, cut, sex, cut, rape, CUT CUT CUT!!!).

All the sex scenes were totally uninhibited, in-your-face completed with a rape-like sequence together with all the body parts neccessary to make it happen. All 15 minutes of it. It is almost reaching porn status, totally unlike the usually blink and you will miss it or the romp in the dark/ under blankets love making scene which we are quite used to unless of course,you watch porn on a regular basis. If so, these sex scenes will be quite mild.

But somehow, I don't feel that the show was in any way sensual or sexy. It is like watching two repressed persons having sex. It totally adds to what the film was all about. You can feel the bound-up energy and emotions of these two characters (Tony Leung and Tang Wei) which begs to be released but they are tied down by their circumstances.

I love the way so many languages are used in the film besides Mandarin. Adds a lot of flavour to the cosmopolitan feel of Shanghai in that era. Overall, the film is good except the pace is super slow in the first 30 minutes. Lee-Hom is so totally out of place in a 1940s film. Too modern for such a vintage film. His acting leaves much to be desired.

Grasp! Tony Leung has aged so much! I can see the age spots on his hands and face! I was hoping to see more of his delicious naked body but of course, the young and beautiful always wins. They chose to focus more on Tang Wei instead...sign..

I must be getting pretty old myself. Dark rings, puffy eyes, ahhhhhhhhh, horror of horrors! That is why I mangaged to drop $82.00 on some Biotherm eyecream yesterday. This is like the largest single amount of money I have ever spent on any facecare product. No choice...for the sake of my face. Think of it in a good way...you will save on plastic surgery later in life...I hope...

Cute questions about us

So I am doing nothing in the office again...I found this questions from my friend's blog and decided that this will starve off some boredom and add some highlights to my day. I am pathetic, I know...

1. Who eats more?
Obviously, it is him. If it is me, I will be the size of Mt Fuji by now. It is no wonder that his stomach is taking on the likes of a knoll. It used to be a plain.
2. Who said "I love you" first?
I am sure that it was him!
3. Who is the morning person?
He is definately the morning person! I am the 'I need to wake up at exactly 8:05am, not one second-earlier' person.
4. Who sings better?
Neither. We can cause the collaspe of UOB plaza if we sing together. Wahahaha...
5. Who's older?
He is. I am from Generation Y. He is from Generation X.
6. Who's smarter?
Hehe...I dun know. I guess we are smart in our own ways. We complement each other!
7. Whose temper is worse?
It really depends.
8. Who does the laundry?
Sometimes me sometimes him. Of course I would like to add that I do it MORE OFTEN since I have more clothes and I change all the time!
9. Who does the dishes?
Usually him...hehe
10. Who sleeps on the right side of the bed?
I am a direction moron so which side is right?
11. Whose feet are bigger?
His..he has feet of a giant
12. Whose hair is longer?
Hair, mine, he has this complusive habit to cut his hair every three weeks
13. Who's better with the computer?
I refuse to try to meddle with the com...
14. Do you have pets?
No...I am against pets because I think that we will not be able to take care of the pets properly. We are only home at night...imagine the loneliness of the poor animal...JM is dying to have a dog...
15. Who pays the bills?
I would like to say we share. But of course the proportion of sharing can differ vastly.
16. Who cooks dinner?
I cook by following the recipe. He cooks on a whim. I will carefully plan the meals and buy all the neccessary ingredients while he likes to throw whatever is available in the fridge into the pot. Thankfully, it turns out edible most of the time.
17. Who drives when you are together?
Him. I have coordination problems. In order to enjoy 80 more years together, it is best that I have as little time at the wheel as possible.
18. Who pays when you go out to dinner?
Him.
19. Who's the most stubborn?
It really depends but I think it is ME!
20. Who is the first one to admit when they're wrong?
Him. I am the Princess who is never wrong...wahaha
21. Whose family do you see more?
errr...think it is my since, i need to visit my parents, my aunties, my uncles all the time...BIG family
22. Who named your pet?
NO pets
23. Who kissed who first?
Must be him!
24. Who asked who out?
Of course it is him.. I am the princess!
26. Who's more sensitive?
Think should be him. I am an insensitive brute! I am trying to be nicer...
27. Who's taller?
JM
28. Who has more friends?
Me simply because I put in more effort in showering tender love and care in keeping in touch with all my friends.
29. Who has more siblings?
We have the same number of siblings. He has an elder sis and a younger bro. I have two younger bros.
30. Who wears the pants in the relationship?
I guess we share one pair of pants. We are on a tight budget.

8 wonderful years and hopefully 80 more to go

We have been dating for 8 years.

Eight years ago, we went on our first date at Jurong Point...that was the closest to civilazation when you were hostelites in NTU. I can only remember the 199 bus ride out to Jurong Point. I reembered that it was exam time and we were cooped up in hall "studying". Apparently, books were not on the top of my mind at that time. My results for my first semster, all Cs, can testify to that. Not that I improved much over the next 4 years.

It is such a pity that JM is not around today to celebrate this wonderful day. Hopefully, we will be able to spend many more future Nov 2nds together. I am sure that on that Nov 2nd evening eight years ago, none of us would have thought that our date will go so far and blossom into a lifetime together. I am glad that it did.

Super Pissed Off!

Argh! I was so pissed off at work today! I thought that I would beable to leave the company happily without any serious misgivings of my boss. Of course, there has been the usual complains and grumblngs but she has yet to personally pissed me off so far. So far so good. Of course, I am destined not to be spared from her ridiculous nonsense. Lack of EQ, extreme stingyness, inability to treat her staff as human being, all these can still be tolerated thus far. What really broke the camel's back today is that she tried to twist her words and make blind accursations.
It is not very often that you see me fly off the hook (I am sure my husband will disagree, but he is different since he promised to be with me for better or worse and in sickness and health). I am usually a amicable and peace-loving person. (No point wasting my life right?) However, once you get me pissed off, you will see a side of Jasmin you have not seen before (JM will totally agree with this). Definitely not someone who keeps quiet when I am angry.
Well anyway, I was going to submit my resignation tommorrow (this is pre-decided, not bought on by this incident).
It will be sad, colleagues have been great! It is really an office without office politics. I guess we all mind our own projects so the chances of stepping on each other toes are not that igh but still it is extremely rare in a place with more than 3 employees. Guess I have always have good fortune with colleagues!